Photo Rémy Steinegger
Photo Rémy Steinegger

There has been that thing in Ticino...

 

20.05.2018

Two weeks ago I was competing at my very first Elite European Championships in Ticino. So many hours of work we have been putting into this project, so many trainings have been done with the mind already at EOC and never before I was underestimating a competition in such a manner...!

 

I'm loving the days before a competition when the team is together in the official accommodation, the atmosphere is still relaxed, you're getting in touch with the athletes from the other nations, everyone is getting ready. And so was it this time, I enjoyed the days before my Sprint Qualification a lot.

 

But then the moment was here and I was standing at the starting line, up on the castle from Bellinzona, for my first race. I was feeling nervous but aware of what I have to do, prepared for what could be coming. 3 - 2 - 1 - taking my map and go - and all my goals and points I wanted to concentrate on have been staying at the start and I was running away without them! The same moment the time was starting to count, the moment when the race was finally starting, I was just forgetting everything! Therefore it isn't a surprise that after some controls I was starting feeling stressed and I was doing a big mistake in the old town of Bellinzona. But what is one of the most important rules in orienteering: never give up, fight until the finish line, only there the race is over! And so I was trying to focus again on my race, I was running as fast as I could. And then I was reading from control 13 to 11 instead of 14... luckily I did realize it and could correct my mistake a little but I was sure that I will be missing the qualification for the final. The disappointment after the finish line was huge! But apparently I was not the only one doing mistakes and with a 12th pace I got my spot in the final! (17 of every heat are going to the final, so 51 in total) Very happy and very tired after this tough race we went home and tried to recover as well as possible to be ready again in the evening. Luckily I didn't know yet what was waiting for me...

 

And so then some hours later same procedure again - quarantine, warming up, last talk to the coach, going to the pre-start. The pre-start was inside a building which was quite special. I was not seeing the start but hearing it - hearing a lot of people. We have been prepared for the possibility, that the start could be on a starting-ramp and that there could be a lot of fans and I was thinking that I could deal with this situation... I learned that not when it was my time to step out of the building, onto the top of a stair, having a loud crowd down in front of me. This was shock pure, I was rebounding deep inside me, although it was like 25°C I started freezing and there was only one thought in my mind: don't start crying. Not know. Pull yourself together and DON'T- CRY! Not at the start, not in front of all those people, not in front of tv cameras. Just - don't- cry. Because this was the only thing I wanted to do right there outside, my feelings have been at sixes and sevens and this was the moment where I was realizing that I'm not at all prepared for the big stage of the Elite Orienteers, that I was completely underestimating EOC, that I had NO idea what it means to run European Championships on homeground. But the countdown was counting, the long last minute was shrinking. It felt like deliverance when finally I could take my map and run down the chute into the crowd and doing what I had to do - orienteering. It was my only chance to flight. In contrary to the morning I could focus on my technical goals and I was just happy to leave the fans behind me and running on my own. The first part was going well and then there was a long leg. I was deciding the right route choice but then I was doing a mistake and was suddenly thinking that I've stepped into an embargoed area. I haven't but my brain was having a short-circuit and reacting with a panic decision and I was turning back. Losing 40". A no- go in a sprint race. Still I tried to bring out the best of the rest. But this was not a lot. My body was starting to rebel, I was getting breathing problems and my legs felt like soft boiled pasta. I was getting slower and slower even though I was fighting, losing 15-20% on every leg... there have been no more mistakes but just all the power was out and I needed all my energy to convince myself to continue running, trying to breath properly and just finishing this race. In the finish I was not even disappointed - all my energy was gone with the 2 races, the bulk of nerviness, the struggles with my body and with all those emotions. I was not feeling anything the following days because it was so much to feel about.

 

Now, some time between, I'm aware that this time was great. In the past I have been thinking a lot about my future in elite sports, if this is really what I would like to do, if I can handle the pressure, if I really want to fight my body to the end during competitions. Now I know: Yes! Yes that's exactly what I'm living for, that's what makes my life special, what is giving a reason to get up every day, to keep fighting during hard times, what my heart is pulsating for.

 

Thanks to all my sponsors and the Suisse O Team to make it possible to live this roller coster of emotions and huge congratulation to the team for this unbelievable strong week at EOC on homeground!

 


Bild Rémy Steinegger
Bild Rémy Steinegger

We're getting closer...

 

04.05.2018

Today it's friday. Tomorrow it will be saturday. And then, there will be sunday. THIS sunday. EOC Sunday.

 

The days until know have been calm, easy, no worries, no stress, training, studying maps, thinking about my technical goals for the EOC Sprint. I was not really thinking about EOC, I was distracted with learning for my exams, watching Tiomila, meeting friends. For me I have already a victory with the selection to run the European Champs for Switzerland. I would like to try to survive the qualification in Bellinzona and then showing a stable final in Mendrisio. But this would be the bonus, there is nothing to loose for me at this EOC - is there any better starting position? :)

 

But now... imagine the possible platform at the start of the sprint where you will see all people and then you have to take your map and run through them... imagine the finish where you will be running yourself into the ground, with cheering friends, fans and family... cheering for your teammates after your race (hopefully for some medals :) ) ... and in the evening falling into your bed, totally tired, flashed by an incredible day at home-EOC with hopefully two good races...

 

... when thinking about that my heart is bumping, giving me the heebie-jeebies, my fingers are getting cold but at the same time they're sweating, the breathing is getting faster - I'M READY!

 

Follow the final live on SRF info!

 

 


swiss champs! Foto Daniel Hadorn
swiss champs! Foto Daniel Hadorn

Coordination will be lifesaving

 

16.04.2018

During the last 2 weeks we have been running the swiss selection races for EOC 2018 in Ticion. The first race was just running, 5000m on track. I have never been running this distance before, so I had no idea, what time I should expect. The result was 18'21'', I think this is okay.

Only a few days later we had the orienteering test races. I'm happy with my sprint and a 5th spot. But I'm not happy with my middle. I was running a very good race but some controls before the finish I was overlooking a control and a bigger mistake was born. It destroyed a result in the top 6 I guess. The last race was the long distance and I totally loused it up. My orienteering was bad, my shape was bad, my mind was not having the right attitude and I was so disappointed in the end.

EOC was not really a goal for me because I knew, that I have to run very good selection races to have a chance to get a place in the swiss team. In my first year as an elite, this is very ambitious. So I was taking the races very seriously, but I was not expecting a selection.

 

But this was wrong! On tuesday morning we got the selection and - what?- my name was on it. Seems like I will be running the Sprint.  At Elite European Championships. In Switzerland. Challenge accepted.

 

First I was excited. Then I was looking forward. And then I suffered a little cardiac arrest. Because I was realizing all the consequences of this selection: missing 2 more weeks of University ( EOC preparation camp included), having exams during the camp and the EOC and the week after EOC, EOC races which are asking for hours of preparation, having 3 selection races for World University Championships only 3 days after my EOC race, having to prepare them too... So only some minutes after getting these great news some big hazard flashers have been blinking in my head with the word HELP! I was completely overstrained and there was only one solution: take the running shoes and go for a run, then we'll see. Coordination will be my lifesaver.

 

But there was another selection last week: the raskt tog teams for the swiss relay champs that have been taking place yesterday. And this was another surprise, the coaches wanted me to run in the first team together with Simone Niggli and Sarina Jenzer. First I was asking one of the coaches if maybe this was a writing mistake. No it wasn't. Immediately I got very nervous. But I was also looking forward to the relay so much! Since weeks I have been waiting for this competition and having the chance to run in the first team made my heart bounding even more. For me it was very important to run a good first leg, not only because of my relayteam but also for the whole raskt tog team. I wanted to say thank you for taking me into the team, for giving me the chance to train together with those absolutely great people, for serving me a reason for looking forward to a lot of events coming in 2018, for creating such a bombastic atmosphere that I never want to leave, for making my feeling twitchy when thinking about the next meeting with the team... (can we maybe fast-forward the time to Jukola?)

I could hand over to Sime in 3rd position and she was able to catch up and was coming back in first position. A very strong race from Säru on the last leg was bringing the championship title to ol norska and the raskt tog team!

Now I have to focus on sprint for the last 3 weeks before EOC but then I want to change my new image of being a spinter ( because I want to be an orienteer - not a sprinter!). And then, very soon Jukola/ Venla is coming! Unfortunately I mispunched a control during one of our team intern selection races for the first team, so I have to run very strong at the last 2 races that are counting. Anyway, our team will be very strong and doesn't matter if I will be running in the first or second team, this event will be unforgettable. 

 


during a relay training in Spain, photo Christine Lüscher
during a relay training in Spain, photo Christine Lüscher

Facing the troubles being an elite athlete

07.03.2018

The last week I was spending in Spain together with the Swiss O Team for the annual southern trainingcamp. As almost every camp it was great and although the weather was not that brilliant as we have been hoping for, I was enjoying it a lot. But this week and the time before have also been showing me, what it really means to be in elite class and that it's not as easy to handle as I was thinking.

 

The terrain in Spain is very exigent and the trainings have been on high level. Having a quick overview: I was collecting 251 controls, running 126km, training 14.5h, climbing 2.410m, doing 6 morning activities, competing in 2 world ranking competitions, standing under millions of raindrops, taking billion grains of sand home, losing hundreds of tears of desperation in the forest, giving a lot of smiles to the world, getting my hair cut, etc...

After every camp I'm asking myself, about what I should be writing on my homepage. All athletes are posting their experiences and every time you are reading similar things. So I'm wondering if I should just go with the group and share my opinions from the bygone weeks or if I should think a bit over my head.

This time I dare to write about my very own thoughts and the struggles in my mind. 

I was looking forward to the Elite Team since I was starting into my last year as a junior, means beginning of 2017. I was feeling a lot of pressure during the last year, I was expecting medals at the competitions and I had the impression that my surrounding is also expecting this. My own, very high expectations made it quite hard to accept a bad race, a mistake in the forest, a competition not ending in top 3, already a training that was not very good was resulting in doubts. It was taking several good races to make me feel a bit more self-confident but only one bigger mistake to destroy it all and to create big doubts and a lot of uncertainty. To be honest, JWOC was one of the hardest weeks in the past year and every day I was looking forward to the time after the competitionweek, in which I could train how I was feeling, running without thinking about orienteering, doing triathlon, enjoying a life without competitive sport. The problem has been /still is, that I was not having a concept how to deal with pressure. And this was the reason why I couldn't wait to start 2018 with the elite team. I was thinking, in my first year nobody is expecting any medals, I won't be having the claim to run in top position. I was thinking, this year will be the chance to develop my skills in a very calm environment and to find a solution for dealing with the competition situation.

But actually it's not exactly what I was imagine.  I mean, of course I'm not aiming for top positions, I don't want to run the same speed as the other girls of the team, I know that I have a lot to work on with my technique. But the pressure coming from myself is bigger than ever before. When doing a big mistake out in the forest, automatically there are thoughts coming about 'you cannot do this being in the national team, you have to get better', I'm thinking that I'm not running fast enough, one single training can end up in so big doubts and full of desperation, giving up myself for a moment. These are the trainings where I'm standing in the forest with tears in my eyes and asking myself why I'm doing that. But then, when I'm running very focused, with a very detailed plan how to get to the control and then - päng- you are exactly coming out where this little white- orange flag is standing, this feeling, filling the whole body with a little bit of proudness, then I know again why I'm an orienteer!

During the camp in Spain, at the start of one training a dog was coming and following me to the starting point. I was very afraid and had to turn around and going back to the coach. They tried to keep the dog while I was going back to the forest but some controls later suddenly he was speeding towards me. I was terrified and didn't know what to do but then I was realizing, that the dog was just following me and waiting, when I was doing a mistake. First I was moving on very hesitantly but then I became accustomed to the dog and he was running with me for almost 5k. With the time I was checking if he was still there and I was waiting until he came back to me, I was telling him to search the controls and I think it was team work ;)

The same way as this situation has been, I'm trying to solve my struggles with the pressure: being afraid is okay, but then you have to see the reality, accept it, tackle the problems, finding solutions, develop yourself and find the right way!

 

First I wasn't sure if this is a good idea to write about my very personal thoughts. But I think there are other athletes feeling the same and every sports(wo)man is facing some troubles during their career. This is okay and totally normal - we just have to find the right path to solve them!


Training with the raskt tog team in Ticino. Photo Daniel Hadorn
Training with the raskt tog team in Ticino. Photo Daniel Hadorn

Taking the express train to 2018

30.12.2017

Soon this year is over. Time for a short review and a outlook:

My season was not perfectly what I was aiming for but it was okay. Due to an injury I missed a top position at the swiss champs in long distance and because of a bad race I missed the podium at the swiss champs in middle distance. Instead the sprint champs have been very okay! At Jukola I was very disappointed because my race was filled with mistakes, but thanks to my teammates we could still finish in a good final position. At JWOC I was running 5 times, this means every race, into Top 10 and I am very happy about this consistency. On the other hand, I was annoyed about my two big mistakes in long and middle distance. Then I could finish the season with good races at JEC. At the end of the season I had my first trainingsweekend with the Elite Team and already the first test races. I'm happy with my Saliscenditest, which is a steep crosscountry testrun in a ticino forest to compare our physical developement with regard to EOC 2018. I feel very comfortable and happy in the Swiss Team and it is interesting to have new inputs and new people to train with. I think, the next year together with these teammates will be great!

Together with the new national team I was also joining another new team, the raskt tog team from ol norska. After a lot of reflecting and discussing I decided to join them and to train and compete together with the people from around Berne. Our main goal is Jukola and Venla 2018 but for me the most important is the atmosphere within the group. Some of the people I know very well and already after this short time it feels a bit like home when I'm training with them. Of course we are training seriously and ambitiously, but we are also laughing and discussing a lot. It feels so good to be together with this team and I'm looking forward to 2018 to share a lot of experiences and moments with the raskt tog team (rtt)! Because of my studies I won't be able to travel to Scandinavia except for Jukola but thanks to the rtt I will still have great trainings in Switzerland and I will be able to work hard on my orienteering skills. So full speed off to 2018 with the express train!

 

Many thanks to Tampereen Pyrintö for borrowing me and their flexibility, so that I still have the possibility to go back training in Finland!

Also thank you very much all my sponsors valiant bank, duchein sa, s-sport team, next sport generation and loterie romand for your support during the season!


So many highlights...

04.11.2017

The time after JWOC was everything else than boring, it was quite the contrary! There were a lot of new things happening and I experienced some little adventures.

Some days after JWOC I was traveling to France for a trainingscamp with the regional squad but maybe this was not the best idea. The terrain was very challenging (which would have been cool) but I had no motivation for some difficult orienteering. My brain was still filled with the pressure and strain from JWOC and it was very hard to concentrate on orienteering. I was enjoying the nice time with my friends but I made absolutely no progress from the technical point of view.

After this week the real highlight of my non-orienteering time was upcoming: Triathlon in St. Moritz! If I wasn't doing orienteering on high level I would immediately start with triathlon. I was enjoing every minute of the swimming, biking and running and I'm already looking forward to the next possibility to compete in a triathlon.

The next peak in my life was the beginning of my studies. Since 2 months now I'm studying physiotherapy in Winterthur. I do really enjoy it! In opposition to the high school I'm very interested in the matter and I'm studying a lot, almost every minute I'm not training or sleeping (or writing website updates ;) ) is invested into anatomy, practical work or kinematics. I have a loooot to do, it is sometimes difficult to understand, I do have some paroxysms of grief, there are a lot of doubts and questions and my life is obsessed with thoughts about physiotherapy- I mean really obsessed: I can't walk anymore through the train station without looking for deformations, I went to a store to buy a book, so that I can read something else than anatomy, and going home I was carrying a book about the musculoskeletal system, sitting in front of the TV I am studying my legs instead of watching to the screen... - but it doesn't disturb me. Soon we have the first exams and yes I'm stressed. We'll see what is getting out of it :)

 

I was also running the Winti- SOLA (a running relay around Winterthur) with the one and only Winti- Gang (pretty much all orienteers living in and around the city), it was great! Then we went to Austria for competing at JEC Junior European Cup where I could show some good last races in the juniors category finishing 2nd (relay), 5th (long) and 2nd (sprint). Followed by a one week trainingscamp I was closing a very nice and successful year. The cherry on the top was the selection for the swiss national team - the big one! Of course I am more than happy about it and I can't wait to start the season 2018!

Selektionen 2018


missing the path...
missing the path...

That's it, this was JWOC 2017!

18.07.2017

Wow, time was flying... JWOC 2017 in Finland was the big goal of the year and I was preparing therefor since the end of last years JWOC. All the time it seemed to be so far away but then suddenly the competitions were starting.

The Swiss Team was arriving in Tampere 4 days before the competition for some trainings and for getting a homelike feeling. The event has been starting on sunday with the opening ceremony.

But then the first race was starting, the Middle Qualification. I wasn't very nervous because I knew that I don't have to be the best one, I just had to qualify for the final. The 20 first runners of every of the 3 heats made it to the A Final. With a very stable race and almost no mistake I did my job and took the second place in my heat. Next step: Final!

 

The jumpiness I didn't had before the Qualification was added to the excitement before the Final. Already during the evening I was very twitchy but the morning before the race was like going through the hell. We tried to make a jigsaw but the longer it went on the more uneasy I got. I felt sick and my hands were shacking. I was very happy when I could finally leave for the quarantine and after some hours there I could eventually start my competition. Already at the first control I was catching up the runner starting before me. But she was running very fast with doing quite a lot of mistakes so I was concentrating on my own orienteering. My race was very okay and also after the arena passage I could handle the knowledge that I was in the lead. There were some mistakes in the end of the race but all in all I could keep the focus and took all the time I needed - until the las control. It seemed to be very easy, just following a path. But there was another path and I was just running because never ever I was thinking that there could be another path. Only very late I realized my mistake and I was loosing too much time, finishing the race on the 7th place. Even though this result is not too bad the disappointment was just huge. It was not just a technical mistake, it was a very stupid one, a mistake I was never thinking about in my preparations. But there was not a lot of time to be angry, the Sprint race was waiting.

 

The next morning Sofie and me were leaving very early, we had the first and the third starting time. The unlucky Middle race was far away and standing at the pre-start I felt ready. Well, almost... there has been two pre-starts and for both I was late, I was entering the -3min start only at -2'20'', oups... this should not happen at JWOC! But I was not confused, I was even a but amused and so I was not worried about my performance. I was taking my map, reading it carefully, stoping at the spectator control (proud of it :P ), taking my routes... finishing a good race. For a long time I was in the lead, then there was Simona taking the lead, another girl was taking the second place - at the end I found myself on the fifth place. Again a very good result and again I was a bit disappointed. Maybe I was hoping for a medal but on the other hand I just have to say, that I was doing what I could, I was not able to run faster or to do less mistakes. So eventually I was happy with my diploma. But I wasn't feeling very well when I was thinking about the coming long distance and I was telling my mother that I don't want to run and that I can't deal with the pressure. But luckily there was a rest day between and some time to recover, not only physically but also mentally and at the end I was standing at the starting line for the long distance with a happy face.

The long distance was very hard. I was doing some smaller mistakes, I lost some time on the long route because of a dubious out of bound area but actually my race was still okay. At the end the missing concentration was the reason for the destroying mistake. I was just "blue", totally tired, I didn't manage to check the direction and in succession I was following the wrong side of a prohibited area, losing almost 3min. Already in the forest I understood that this will cost me a good ranking. Still I ended up on the 10th place but I was very depressed. Again a very stupid and nonsense mistake. I was very upset of myself because I didn't take a energy gel with me, this mistake was only happening because I was really totally at my limit. But well, we can learn from every mistake..

Only the relay was missing and together with Sofie and Simona we could show some stable performances and taking the silver medal for Switzerland. I was very relieved and happy for this result. Thanks to my great relay-mates!

This was my last JWOC. All races from my 2 JWOCs are in Top 10 (10-2-10-7-5-10-2) and I think this is quite okay ;) Maybe I was not reaching what I was dreaming about at this years competition but I was learning so much about orienteering and got a lot of experience. Thank you very much to all my coaches, the Swiss Team, the people from Tampereen Pyrintö (especially Janne Märkälä!), my family and my sponsors! An athlete is nothing without his coach.